i need ü the most.

Maybe I really f-cked up. Maybe I shouldn't have left the one I loved, even though he was everything I didn't want in a man. He constantly lied and cheated, but he was the only person who really understood me and was patient with me. And although he was scum, he loved me unconditionally. He said I was the girl of his dreams. He said he worshipped the ground I walked on. He said he couldn't wait until we had a child together, he always imagined how beautiful I would be pregnant. Yet where is he now when I really needed him. No where. Just gone. As if I never existed. Yet he doesn't have the heart to tell it to my face, to tell me that he no longer loves me in that way. I suppose it's a mercy, even now that we're not in each others lives he still won't hurt me to my face. I can't help but watch Justin Bieber's video over and over, it's as if I completely understand his pain with his breakup from Selena. Extremely corny, I know, but still. Heartbreak is heartbreak. Love doesn't last, it isn't forever.

But I love J. I'm so in love with him. No one will ever be like S, ever. But J is so different, I just don't feel the same love and devotion I felt before. I wish things were different and yet the same as before. But change is inevitable and I have to let the past go and move on to the future, to something or someone I truly deserve ..

xxo,
M.

So, you say you want to get away..

As the story goes, when one door closes, another one opens.  It just took me a while to see the decay of said door.  But across the threshold I found something different, possibly something I've been waiting for all along.

Wants. Needs. Will have.

1. "Paragon" TopShop 180$  2. "99 Tie"Jeffrey Campbell 115$  3. "Lively Lace" TopShop 180$  4."London" TopShop 160$ 

5. "Psychic3" Topshop 220$  6. "Louie" Sam Edleman 160$  7. "Lita" Jeffrey Campbell 160$  8. "Prance" Jeffrey Campbell 160$

I need every single pair.  What should I put my tax returns towards? Well originally I've been telling myself all year I'd invest in one of those foam mattresses .. oh but these darlings would give me much more gratification! Especially the PSYCHIC3's from TopShop. Gimme, gimme, gimme!

xxo, mia.

Black.

It's the simple things. Black on black will always be my go-to palette. For now, I'll just dream of Miu-Miu & Lanvin.  One day.

Come what may.

Hello blogosphere.

xxo,
mia.